Losing Patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long
I had it all planned out
I was hoping it'd all work out
I was losing patienceYou know it's never been my best trait
Counting minutes, hours, counting daysThen it dawned on me unpredictability
I told myself everything's just fine
You worry too much, it's gonna eat you aliveI was looking forward to this day for so long
I had it all planned out
I was hoping it'd all work out
Will it all work outNow I feel exposed like a black light
On the wall in a darkened room
All the dirt appears, you can see my fears
I don't want to let my guard downYou know I never had the feeling
That you would prey on my insecurities
You know I never had the feeling
That you would prey on these insecurities I haveWhy is this wait taking so long
Counting minutes, hours, counting days
I'm losing patienceDon't think this means I'm walking away
I won't let fear get the best of me
Now it's up to me, I wouldn't change a thing
(Don't think this means I'm walking)